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too much freetime

loss of life balance

I need to work - a regular job

that gritty raw haggard feel

something like bukowski

fight that disgusting urge

- to crawl back into a bottle

no smoke either

or would it help?

losing myself and my identity

everything feels too unknown these days,

- weeks and months

the years pass

what have I done?

what am I doing?

do I need more?

or something else

I didn't think I was lost anymore,

I guess I was wrong